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God Bless India
Best Wishes on Eve of Indian Republic Day 2010

God Bless India
Best Wishes and Prayers on Eve of Indian Republic Day 2010

Life is Dreamz set in motion…
-Golden Boy

GB wishes you all a Happy, Amorous, Prosperous, Healthy, Safe, Peaceful, & Delightful New Year 2010.

The tragedy of life was that I sought to surrender my Ego and the Process started to gnaw on my inbuilt Survival Instinct.

I am not dying. I was born to live! I had stopped dreaming; had lost my way “into the dreary desert sand of dead habit” - (in the words of Tagore)

There is something about Dreamz! If one loses touch with them, life dries up. Without goals, there is nothing to get up from bed every morning to!

To be able to enjoy a good meal it is first essential to get ‘good and hungry’. And once one achieves, one needs to move on to the next goal. Or withering sets in, life stagnates.

Dreams keep us alive, and give us the sunshine to reach up to!

Winter has finally arrived in the country. This year the wait for winter was longer than usual (blame Climate change!)

7 vehicles collided against each other due to poor visibility somewhere in Northern India.

And even as the fog becomes thicker everywhere else, it’s only now that the fog is wearing away from my life. The dull white barren snow is finally seeing some sunlight penetrating in. And as the ice melts, the landscape is in turmoil yet again. Herald the change of seasons!

And it is all upto me now how to deal with this yet another change in my emotional-mental make up.

After jumping head-on into Yoga, and searching for a resonance to the whispers of my heart in the Yoga-Philosophy for a year, I stand at the brink of yet another failed experiment. I could not proceed beyond the 4th limb of Ashtanga Yoga into Pratyahara (withdrawal of Senses) that deals with the renunciation of the Material world.

And I find myself having to face the ruins of a 12-year old long fight with Depression. My boss at my new workplace has been a catalyst in removing the dirt from my lenses so that I can see now for myself how I lust for success, fame and money deep within!

I am no Yogi. I am no Fakir. I am just another worldly man with the usual storms of desires and earthly needs that beseech the human heart. To turn my face away from these would mean taking away my sight from the person that I truly am. I am as human as anyone else; and now know for sure that in humanity and not in godliness lies my redemption.

Today GB stands amongst the ravages of his life, trying to salvage what truly belongs to him: a faith in a Higher Reality, a re-enforced faith in the truth of the deepest urges and needs of his body, a greater connection with earth; and a very ordinary yet earnest desire to earn money, fame & recognition. Denying these would be fallacy, chasing any other philosophy other than this – a mortal sin!

(Pic: the Zoozoos, Courtesy Vodafone ads on TV. For more about Zoozoos check out http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/ZooZoo)

One fine afternoon over lunch at office, a colleague remarked “GB do you know how long it has been since you last lost your temper?”

Her comment took me by surprise! I almost felt I had skipped a heart beat, so astonished was I at her statement. I realized that I had not lost my temper for over 5-6 months! This, when I had a track record of losing my cool at the drop of a hat ever since I had joined this new workplace a year ago!

When I analyzed what could be the reason for this grand transformation, I found out that it was a simple Yoga practice which I had been following regularly at the Training Institute, a 5-minute Meditative technique called Sukhasana which I was required to do with my students before the start of my class everyday. I had done Sukhasana for almost six-months without realizing how deep it had helped me deal with my temper!

I am a Libran which means that the lord of my Zodiac (Sun sign) is Venus. And my Moon Sign is Taurus (again ruled by Venus!). That makes me a hardcore romantic. To add to it the zeal of a Gemini as my Ascendant sign… No wonder then that for the next one year I pursued Yoga zealously as a knight pursuing his ladylove!

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I left my Job, gave away my rental apartment, made arrangements for my mom to stay at my elder brother’s place, and traveled to the interiors of Bihar from Mumbai to stay at an Ashram and learn Yoga. I told myself I will learn a European language later immigrate to my ex-love in Europe. It was all nice, till I found out what came with the package!

Yoga Asanas (yogic Postures) are a great way to deal with emotional and physical problems and to keep oneself fit and balanced! I found that the Samkhya and Yoga Philosophy, which is dished out in the name of Indian Philosophy in any Yoga Course at major Yoga Institutes across India, teach of an age-old tradition which Indians have followed for ages now: that of nullifying the Senses and turning inwards.

I don’t know how it helps others, but it did a lot to make me further duller and withdrawn from the outside world as I tried to be a sincere student of yoga following the precepts (like Brahmacharya, Samyam etc.) being taught in the Course. When the same things are repeated to you again and again, you are being programmed!

All through this, my spirit kept telling me that there is something wrong somewhere, pulling at the chords of my wishful heart. When I wouldn’t listen to what it had to tell me it would just sap away all my physical energy and I would head towards a spell of Depression. This would make me totally bedridden!

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At a recent BasicIndia workshop that I attended on Bodywork, I realized how I had tried to suppress the Life-Energy within my own body, the Energy which is also sexual in nature. I realized how I had narrowed my vision (quite literally at that) to look away from objects that could captivate my senses or arouse my desires! I discovered how I was locking myself away in a shell pouring through the Yoga books at the Institute while my Spirit and Body constantly demanded freedom!

Today I can say with conviction that the Human body is a wonderful Instrument. And if one allows the Energy within to flow freely one is in tune with Nature. What use are the Siddhis of controlling the ocean tides and becoming invisible when one cannot feel quite alive or live fully, only to be on a mental tour on some other heavenly plane?

I decided to be a simple Human being and return to the Earth plane! Back to body and Nature! Feels Good!

Pain
Desire
Unwillingness to bow down
To fill the space
With more garbage
No idols, no swamis, no mumbo-jumbo

Fear
Resistance
Relations!!!
Past that gnaws within
Forgotten and buried deep down
Shrieks

Stillness
Ache
Love for self
Strength to go on

Trust for Life
Trust for Nature
Trust for Spirit
Trust for Body
Closer to Freedom
One step closer to Home!

Stillness
Ache
Love for self
Strength to go on
-Golden Boy

IKE
The world is what you think it is, so be aware of your thoughts.

KALA
There are no limits, so be free.

MAKIA
Energy flows where attention goes, so be aware of how and where you focus your energy.

MANAWA
Be present, as now is the moment of power.

ALOHA
To love life is to be happy with life.

MANA
All power comes from within, so be confident and use it.

PONO
Effectiveness is the measure of truth- be positive and do what works.

A Druid’s call,
A Priestess in trance in an Egyptian temple
A Philosopher Mentor in ancient Greece
A Zen Master in ancient China
A Guru in the Himalayas
A Sufi on the streets of Persia

They knew something we have lost touch with now
That holds the key to a healthy human race
To World Problems, Relationship Problems, Life Problems
Human Kind has a wonderful array of Teachers
Who can guide us from another realm
To help ourselves and others…

Holistic Therapies, Yoga, Bodywork, connecting with Higher Intelligence…

After the Industrial Revolution and the advent of the Corporate culture, our race stands on the brink of another Revolution. After having looked out into outer space, now it is time to go within… for a wholesome life and deeper relationships! To dig into Ancient Wisdom and make connections with higher realms!

That is the scope of Human potential. That is the next level of Evolution for mankind.

(Image: Lord Indra- The Lord of the Five Senses)

“Even when one thinks one has gotten rid of his/ her Ego”, God Kama (the Lord of Desire) would say, “he has fallen to my charms, fallen
to the tricks of the Ego”!

Osho’s book on Yoga made an interesting read! He says that the body has needs that needs to be fulfilled. On the other hand it
is the Mind that has desires (endless in number) and these cause miseries, these need to be curbed.

In a limbo about life once more!

Love
Golden Boy