Of Kundalini Initiations and Love…
Saturday today! Early morning I had made up my mind to fax a mail to somebody for Kundalini awakening initiation. However it is Saturday today. And my astrologer always said, nothing new on Saturday. Ok… let’s see!
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It’s well worth mention here, yesterday I listened to the Italian Opera on CD and I enjoyed it perfectly well, didn’t feel like running away from it as in the recent past.
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Since morning this song has been on my lips. It’s an old Hindi number.
man re tu kaahe na dheer dhare
o nirmohi moh na jaane jinka moh kare
man re tu kaahe na dheer dhare
iss jeevan ki chadhti dhalti
dhoop ko kiss ne baandha
rang pe kiss ne pehre daale
roop ko kiss ne baandha
kaahe yeh jatan kare
man re tu kaahe na dheer dhare
utna hi upkaar samajh koi
jitna saath nibhaa de
janam maran ka mel hai sapna
yeh sapna bisraa de
koi na sang mare
man re tu kaahe na dheer dhare
o nirmohi moh na jaane jinka moh kare
ho man re tu kaahe na dheer dhare
Meaning:
Oh my heart, why do you despair
The one for whom you yearn, knows not Desire…
No one has control over Joy and Sorrow
No one can keep beauty and youth forever
So why do you attempt the impossible…
Oh heart why do you despair…
It’s well-worth the little time spent together
‘In life and in death’ is a term of delusion
Nobody dies along with you…
Oh my heart why do you despair
The one for whom you yearn, knows not Desire…
(Hindi Song Title: Man Re Tu Kahe Na Hindi Movie/Album Name: CHITRALEKHA Singer: MOHAMMAD RAFI, Lyrics: Sahir Ludhianvi
Translation: Golden boy – Suresh)
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It’s astonishing to see how relevant these words are in today’s times when the media keeps bombarding us with images and stories of made-for-each-other lovers, and keeps conditioning our minds to look for fulfillment and happiness in another human being. (there is a song in hindi… Aisa koi zindagi main aaye, jo zindagi ko zindagi banaye… Somebody do step in my life, so my life could find meaning…)
From early childhood, our Minds are conditioned to believe that there is this one person out there who is made just for us. And as a result, one sees so many of us get hurt in love. It’s common to see people heart broken, paralyzed for a long time in unrequited love or broken relationships. And still the film industry churns out hundreds of made-for-each-other movies every year. We grow up desiring for this perfect mate who will make our life happy and complete.
However, my experience in love has convinced me of the veracity of Sahir Ludhianvi’s lyrics – Man re tu kahe na dheer dhare… It is foolish to yearn for any thing or person to the extent that you become dependent on him/her for your fulfillment in life. (So also states the Bhagavat Gita) One has to look for meaning and fulfillment in life… in oneself. One has to find his peace first. One has to learn to love himself first, so as to be able to love others. (As Jesus said, Love … as yourself).
Seeking love and fulfillment in another human being is disastrous. ‘Love’, as my therapist says, ‘is a well from which you give…’ It is disastrous to look for meaning and fulfillment in life via. another human being.
So what does one do with all this energy that one is spending in his love for the other person? Where does one channelize all this energy? This was one question that baffled me after I found the futility of spending my passion on another person. I found the answer in Religion. The very same religion which emphasized the danger of too much attachment to a thing or another person. I learnt to channelize the energy to God. For that I had to first seek out my Ishta Deva… my favourite form of God. In Hinduism you have different gods with different attributes to suit your temperament and personality. My family god is Shiva. However I found love in my heart for Vishnu, the God that sustains the Universe. I poured out my love to God, my benefactor. This was one object of affection which would return my love manifold. This was one object of affection who would take me to the heights of spiritual peace and joy, instead of plunging me into disappointment and despair. I, finally, had found my love expressed in the right way. In a way this was my expression of love for my Higher Self, me myself.
