Not been to work since Monday..
Following an advice that was given to me long ago- Do not Panic, and Do not Dramatize. Just Accept…
Meanwhile chanced upon the version of Bhagavad Gita as written by Abhinavagupta- the 940 AD -Kashmiri Shaivate Tantric Scholar.. This is what the reviews speak about the book ’Abhinavagupta’s commentaries on the Bhagavad Gita- Gitarth Samgraha- Translated by Boris Marjanovic’….
“Abhinavagupta explains in his commentary that he undertook this work because he felt that his predecessors when commenting on the Bhagavad gita had not understood its secret or esoteric meanings…It will also be inspiring for anyone interested in the practice of the secret yoga of the gita”
Anyone interested in a condensed form of the same (11 pages in Windows Word document- with font size 12) can click on the following link
Also at Shambhavi’s blog – www.livingtantra.net, one needs to check out this beautiful article she has written- Excerpts-
Every crystal is perfectly expressing exactly what it was designed to express.
If you do a lot of sadhana and try hard to self-realize, this is not a point of personal pride. You are not better, more holy, or even making more effort than anyone else. You are just doing what you were made to do, and what the cosmic circumstance allows you to do.
If at one time you were struggling with compulsive, destructive habits and distractions, and now you sit with joy every day to do your practice, this does not mean that you are making more effort now, or that you weren’t doing your best before.
You were always making an effort to Self-realize. You were always doing your best.
And everyone else is doing the same.
We are all, already, doing our best.
Chogyam Namkhai Norbu often says, “We do our best,” or, “Just do your best.”
He is stating our condition. We can all discover greater capacity. We can do our best. We can express what we already are more fully. But it is also true that in every moment, we are already fully expressive and expressing full capacity.
Both are simultaneously true: discovering capacity and always being expressive of our full capacity.
No one has the choice not to desire Self-realization, even if, in this lifetime, this desire is expressed through acquiring material things or eating donuts.
The desire for Self-realization must also self-recognize. When the desire for Self-realization recognizes itself for what it is and ceases to mistake itself for the desire for a donut, this is when we enter the stream.
This is when we start learning about the intelligence and the grace of desire. And now we can more consciously continue to do our best. Om Shanti Shambhavi…
Check out her site.. www.livingtantra.net
For those interested in the Esoteric Knowledge of gita… some excerpts from Swami Lakshmanjoo’s website which I reproduce here… (please note that the following is just an explananation by Swami Lakshmanjoo of his understanding of Gitarth Samgraha. For the actual stuff, of the great 940- AD scholar Abhinavagupta, you need to read the english translation by Boris Marjanovic…)
In the first chapter, from view point of Abhinavagupta, he explains that there is a war going on between your senses, in the organs of senses there is a war always going on. In senses there is joy, and joy fights with sadness; sadness fights with joy. In the same way there is lust, lust fights with detachment, detachment fights with lust. It is all going on in one’s own body- this war.
So this is the conclusion of the first chapter of Bhagavad Gita.
…You must focus your thought in brahma- always; in each and every action you must focus your mind towards one point. And this is dvaita mahamoham, this great illusion of differentiatedness that this is pure way of meditation and this is impure way of meditation- this is meditation and this is not meditation- this is absence of meditation. When you understand that “I am absent from meditation” you are gone, you are no more, you don’t meditate at all.
SO you have to remember the Lord in each and every action. Remember him and love him.
Then what will happen to him?
Even in worldly activities he is in trance, he is established in trance.
…. The thing (in daily life, routine) what everybody does, jnani also, i.e. realized person also does the same thing.
My master used to wake up at 1am and he would go to the bathroom. Then he would wash his face and call me for giving him a cup of tea. And he would take tea…
At night you see… (laughter!), at 1.30am!
… he would take tea with kulcha0 (bread) and then meditate upto 5am to 6am. And then he would go and take hubble-bubble smoke…
He was smoking, he used to smoke. I don’t know why he smoked, but it was something, everything was divine in him.
… he smoked and then he (would tell me) “make tea for yourself.” And he would take a cup of tea again. He would go for walk, he would come and have a gossip with his friends. Whatever we do, he was doing the same way.
This is what he says sa eva karakavesa, you have to do the same thing what you were doing in the period of ignorance. In the period of ignorance the things you were doing, you have to do same things in the period of knowledge, in the period when you are realized. Sa eva karakavesa kriya sivavisesini and that activity also is the same, it is not changed. His activity is not changed by the realization of God. Activity remains the same everything remains the same, but the fruit is unique. The fruit from that action is the liberation from the pangs of repeated births and deaths. (The) fruit is separate, fruit becomes unique for him. For more… http://www.universalshaivafellowship.org/usf/bgvdgita01.html