(Picture of Asherah, the Goddess of ancient Palestine)
“The Goddess doesn’t die. It is the faith that dies, the faith of the ungrateful crowd of mortals.”
(Goddess of ancient Palestine: Read full article at http://alkman1.blogspot.com/2006/12/goddess-of-israelites.html)
A Voice calls me from the wilderness, and I heed Her call… reaching out, searching for Her in the wilderness… only to reach just one step closer to Her… when I feel I have satisfied Her wish, or have lost my way, only to recoil back into everyday routine.
The day I will reach Her, I would have reached the Ultimate state of Ever-Compassionate Self, what people call as Enlightenment.
I search for Her in Her idols in temples, in the call of the muezzin to adore Her, in the ecstasy of the Dervish who is in love with Her; in Uma’s music meditations that attempt at making us reach the land where She resides.
Yet I am far from Her.
Everyday I see countless people bleed, in rend of separation from Her. Some of them try to reach Her with their Mind and Words, a means I found was limited long back. She is beyond the grasp of the Intellect. To reach Her you don’t pass through the channel of the Mind, you take an entirely different way… a new consciousness that is not the Mind, which is beyond the understanding of the ordinary Mind.
In Her Name I also see countless people live in constant fear. Why! religions and spiritual-orders even spread lies about Her, dreading Her, killing their sexual instinct (Her creative aspect), hating their body (Her ‘creation’ aspect), and turning away from relationships/ love and Nature (Her many Forms through which she mingles with us in everyday life).
And yet in all this, amongst the chaos and mess that my mind sees the world in, I hear Her soft sweet laugh like the tingling of tiny bells… She laughs at our Ignorance of Her.
When I heed her, and put my head in her lap to find solace, I see Her hands in the Abhaya Mudra: telling us Not to Fear, asking us to take refuge in Her, to have faith in Her… for to worry is not our business… It is She who takes care of the world, and we cannot understand Her ways… Only total Faith, relentless seeking to find true wisdom within, and accepting Her totally will help us heed Her call…
And if you listen quietly… you will feel the rend of separation in the chaos of your mind, and when you traverse that land of mind, go beyond, into the Stillness… you will have a glimpse of Her land…
Just a glimpse yet… And you will become a seeker…
But please don’t get lost in the wilderness… there are traps spread everywhere by the untrusting… the infidels… the ones who dread the Goddess… the ones who have lost their way… and have gone astray… Please don’t get lost!
Only the Goddess can show us the way.